Life

Life was never explained in simple words No hellos and goodbyes Areas of grey That was life  It was uncertainty  The color blue  That was life  A hue that had too much to do It was complex, yet simple  It was love with sprinkles of hate  Taking the good and the bad  Wrapping it in…

The Path

TodayYesterdayAnd the day beforeI walked down a path of uncertainty Investing my time into the unknownBreathing the air that slowly killed my dream The smoke clings to my lungs as if to deprive themI gasp for airA slow death This dreamless night I’ve forgotten what the beautiful things look like. TodayYesterdayAnd the day before I…

Will You Follow Me

Whisper to me in the dead of nightWhen the wind has gone cold Will you follow me to the dark side of the wrong way?Will you hold my hand as we fall into decay? My loveMy lord Will you take me?Will you hold my soul in the pits of the abyss? My loveMy lord Will…

A Child Cries In the Distance

A child cries in the distance Their mother for the fourth time tonight is busy With a stranger she will never meet again The bruises The smell The guilt They all have become a part of who she is A child cries in the distance And for the first time tonight he is sober A…

In the Chaos

A chaotic silence has taken my words away.I sway in the windTrying to forget the words you once said.I was guilty Of thinking happy thoughts in this silent moment  Forgive me The words dance on my tongue but refusing to take flightWords rush forthOnly to be stopped in their tracks  Hush nowThe words still hurtWhere do I…

Numb

He said he loved me todayAnd like the days beforeYou could see the joy on his faceDelicate pride lost in a moment of certainty And I felt…NothingNo heart beatsNo angels singing Just whispers of what should be there.The joy of the passed me byAnd like a thought caught on a child’s imagination, gone. He told…

Oh Beloved

Warm hugs Harmonious love No goodbyes These are the things I seek when I close my eyes When the wind blows late at night And the birds stop their singing In your arms as all tears fall I am too shy to ask My heart beats too loud to deny The simple truths My desire…

Intrusive Thoughts

I have lost myself to the unknownDrowning in my sorrowAloneOnce moreMisery was supposed to be my companion Yet here I sitLegs crossedAbandonedAnd alone Such a cruel worldMark my words Intrusive thoughts know no bounds 

The Guilt

The guilt sets inIt’s my fault reallyI should have leftWhen he told me to hold my breathAnd the walls became his enemy I should have leftWhen he said it was nothingAnd the bottle became his friend I was guilty tooIt was my faultShe died protecting me And now I am guilty too momWhen dad quit…

Saturday Thoughts

I wrestle with my own mortality. Lost between the coming and going. My brain is in disarray and I find it hard to concentrate. It’s the depression. I wear it like a second skin now Close to my heart. I want to tell you something different this time I want to say that the medication…