Anxiety: Dealing With Failure

Lately, it seems my anxiety has gotten out of control. There is an overwhelming fear that creeps in each time I try to accomplish a goal or try something new. Different thoughts take root in my mind, and they fester, like infected wounds.  What if I fail?  What if I do well, will their expectations…

December Goals

As December begins to show its head, I want to state a few goals for the month. At the end of the year, I take a few days to reevaluate the year, what I could have done better, what I failed to do, and how to be better in the next year? It seems this…

Winding Road

Down this winding road I go Teetering on the edge of life  Lost between a lover and a memory  Oh how I wish to forget  Sweet words with no meaning Empty promises left on my doorstep I must confess  I was the one who ran away  Down a winding road Between the now and the…

LIFE

Life was never explained in simple words No hellos and goodbyes Areas of grey That was life  It was uncertainty  The color blue  That was life  A hue that had too much to do It was complex, yet simple  It was love with sprinkles of hate  Taking the good and the bad  Wrapping it in…

Amidst The Noise

Amidst the noise I hear it still A whisper in the wind A voice beckons me to the end To say good bye once more To die in a state of disbelief Oh I wish To feel once more To touch a lover’s warmth To live beneath the sky To rejoice in the beauty of…

I Have Stopped

I have stopped looking for perfection in the soul of another Stopped breathing the same air you call sacred I have stopped this walk of shame I have stopped looking for fulfillment in the world Stopped laughing at the things that were yours To myself, I dare not say a lie The wounds are deep…

Life Update

The last time we spoke it was June, I wrote a poem or two and then all darkness came to render my life a mediocre existence. For the silence, I am sorry. It was never my intention to disappear. I think I am better now, or maybe not. I can no longer tell the difference…

Life

Life was never explained in simple words No hellos and goodbyes Areas of grey That was life  It was uncertainty  The color blue  That was life  A hue that had too much to do It was complex, yet simple  It was love with sprinkles of hate  Taking the good and the bad  Wrapping it in…

My Redemption

On rainy days When the sun has gone away Like a flower without water I wilt It may be my guilt that has made me this way Forgiveness Is something I can never earn My redemption is at hand All I seek is a salvation Which saves me from myself I wish to be whole…

Withered Dreams

Withered dreams lay at my feet In puddles of hopeless dreams When I step closer, they struggle away As if I were a disease I see them in the alleyways And across the street In empty shopping malls Where two paths meet And if I were to approach They’ll growl and hiss At my slightest…