The Path

TodayYesterdayAnd the day beforeI walked down a path of uncertainty Investing my time into the unknownBreathing the air that slowly killed my dream The smoke clings to my lungs as if to deprive themI gasp for airA slow death This dreamless night I’ve forgotten what the beautiful things look like. TodayYesterdayAnd the day before I…

She Leans On The Bottle Tonight

She leans on the bottle tonight Asking for a friend She has forgotten the feeling of another Tears roll down her face No one comes to help her pain She takes a drink And then another Soon the world has lost its color She leans on the bottle tonight No friend in sight Tear-stained Her…

Numb

He said he loved me todayAnd like the days beforeYou could see the joy on his faceDelicate pride lost in a moment of certainty And I felt…NothingNo heart beatsNo angels singing Just whispers of what should be there.The joy of the passed me byAnd like a thought caught on a child’s imagination, gone. He told…

Saturday Thoughts

I wrestle with my own mortality. Lost between the coming and going. My brain is in disarray and I find it hard to concentrate. It’s the depression. I wear it like a second skin now Close to my heart. I want to tell you something different this time I want to say that the medication…

The Reason Why I Have Been Away

Hello lovely people, I have been in the pits with my depression and fibromyalgia lately. So I want to tell you sorry. I currently have to use a cane to get around and well… I want to put my blog on hold, while I build up the strength to keep fighting on these dark days….

The Dead

Little raindrops linger on the crown of my headI spent my last moments listening to the deadTake a dive they saidIt won’t hurt at allThey pullAnd tugAt my will for lifeIt’s the antithesis of strifeStifle my wordsWith hymns from the graveTuck awayMy nameTheir soul has lost its purposeNow wandering in the abyssThe dead requests companyThey’ll…

On My Dark Days

On dark days like this Depression sits upon my chest Like a fat cat Comfortable The guilt And remorse builds On no sane reason or thought I am worthless I am without The thoughts come As little whispers in my ears “You can’t do it” “They’ll never love you as much as her” The thoughts…

The Pain

Cold Black rain darkens the sleeves of my life Where my heart used to be is covered in ink Words left unsaid Have made their bed Clamouring, clawing about my mind A sad state of Depression The light the once shone in me Has now faded into a sea of misery These are the days…

Depression

Tear stained cheeks Tell a story that my heart can merely utter The words have lost their way in my throat The depression is eating me alive Colors draining from the world around me Irritation kicks in Agitation takes its place I am a lost child Frustration has come to play My heart beats fast…