Not everyone can have the trifecta of pain delivered all at once. But since I am an overachiever and a perfectionist, I managed to achieve a combination of three different sources of pain without trying.
The last time I was in that much pain was in August. Let me tell you what happened to start it all off.
On Sunday night, I wasn’t feeling good. A bit of a grouch and annoyance; I also wanted a hug every five minutes. By the time, I went to bed, my brother was tired of my existence.
Then it started, the pain in my throat worsened, and I had trouble breathing. I thought my tonsil would finally choke me to death like my dentist warned me last year.
The pain from hell
The pain from hell was a combination of sparks of chronic pain shot all over my body, then my stomach started cramping. The part that continues to make me cry is the migraine that feels like my head is splitting right now.
I cried so many times yesterday and today, and to make matters worst, my back is on fire, along with the increase in the sensitivity on my skin.
What makes the pain from hell so much worst is not knowing if the next minute or hour will be better or worst.
I really hate how the chronic pain I have is so fickle. One moment I am fine and then the next, I want to sleep so deep the pain doesn’t touch me anymore.
What helps me manage it?
I would love to tell you that I have medication to help, but I don’t. My body has a high tolerance to all medication. I must resort to holistic remedies to help.
Ginger tea helps with inflammation, fever grass (lemon grass) and cerase help with cramping, and rest in a dark room with plenty of water and foods high in fiber to eat.
Even if this helps me manage it, I still have to be patient with myself.
Hopefully, the pain lessens soon.
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